An Indian summer in the middle of winter. ♥

A second of pain..

..because we did a blood glucose test in BioLab, lancets and all! =)))))))))))))

Me: Uy ate bilangan mo ko ha! Count me down!
Trinna: Sige sige ha.. Hup! *fakes pressing the lancet button, then LAUGHS*
Me: HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! O_O
Trinna: *LAUGHS AGAIN* O sige, sige. Eto na. One, two.. *presses lancet button* *LAUGHS*
Me: *jerks hand away after feeling the lancet sting* AAAH!
Gen and Trinna: *LAUGHS*
Me: T_T

LAWLZ. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Had lunch at Flaming Wings, then had lunch AGAIN at Angel's house.
Gen and I didn't really mind because we didn't eat breakfast in preparation for the blood glucose test. :D


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Okay, let's get a little serious.

Over SMS, I told Kris that I was never really over him.
And it's true.

I told him that I was already okay, but somehow he went back into my life.. and I don't want to lose him again.

He wasn't mad at me (I asked). But he doesn't want me crying again because of him, he feels guilty. And he still remembers that time when I was really mad at him.. This was just last summer.

As stupid as this might seem, I am crying while I type these words.

No, I'm not over him.
No, I don't want to get over him.
No, I don't want to lose him.
No, I don't want to lose him AGAIN.
No, I can't forget him.

And maybe, just maybe.. YES.

I think I still love him. :"(

I don't know if it was by fate or by chance or pure coincidence.. But I was listening to this song while I was SMS-ing him. It said whatever I needed to say to him..

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

- "Thinking Of You" by Katy Perry

It's a painfully beautiful song. Strongly recommended.

God, I miss him even more. :"(

Oh, won't you walk through
And bust through the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

Cuando estoy con él, estoy pensando en ti.
When I'm with him, I am thinking of you.

'Til tomorrow.
♥

Conflict and confrontation.

With a dash of hope. :)

BioLab - LONG TEST! Written and practical. OMFG. XD
The smell of formalin really got to me. O_O I only realized after handing my paper in that I made a few careless mistakes. DAMMIT! T_T Oh well.

After Bio, my friends and I went to a kubo. They started telling me about how Luigi was scared of me, and all that.. How, as my friends, they want me to be open and they don't want me to get hurt. Apparently a lot of people have been saying mean things about me, but they know the truth. I just kept silent as I was internalizing all this.

Few hours late I decided to confront Luigi myself. To be honest, I hate confrontation. It's something I'd rather avoid. But then it's only been him that really convinced me that, whether I like it or not, I have to confront him and clear things out between us. Some of it was my fault.

OKAY, IT WAS ALL MY FAULT.

The long story I'd rather keep to myself.

To make things short, Luigi and I are okay now. And when I asked him, if between him and me there's a little love already.. He said yes. :]

Now that really made my day. :)

However, I'm just even more confused now, for some reason.
Things are just getting even more complicated. Gahddammit.

'Til tomorrow.
♥

The Psych-Os hit 420 / Squabbles

I was at school today.
AND I HAD NO EXAM. :D
So why was I even there?
To go drink at 420 (a bar/resto near school) with my friends. :)

At first it was just Gen and I.
Then Angel came.
Then the other Psych 1 boys came.
Yes, Luigi was there.ü (But he left early. Boo.)

And little by little we diminished until there were only 5 left.

1. Me
2. Angel
3. Aldrin
4. Albie
5. Aaron

What I drank:

• 1 San Mig Strong Ice
• 2 San Mig Light
• a glass of iced tea
• a glass of water :)

What I ate:

• cordon bleu (hehe Gen and I had lunch)
• about 3 isaw (thanks, Aldrin! haha first time kong kumain ng isaw T_T sarap!)

**isaw = barbecued chicken intestines :D Sounds gross, but it's actually pretty good! :D

The 5 of us left at around 4pm.
Heehee.

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Luigi and I had another little squabble tonight.

I talked to his cousin since his (Luigi's) mom was looking.
I told him that Luigi never seems to have time for me, and that I feel like I'm being played.
Joseph (the cousin) told me that if I'm serious with Luigi (even though we're not exactly together), I should hold on, no matter what.
Thank you, Joseph. I needed that.

Eventually I got to talk to Luigi again.

Me: Sineryoso mo ba ako?

Him: OO. Ilang tanong mo na yan ah!

Pero seryoso ka talaga sakin

Oo nga..

I know we're taking things one step at a time. We may seem together but we're not.
At least, NOT YET. :)

Because I slept early yesterday yet again. XD

Okay, so these are what happened yesterdayyyy. :D

BioLab - Took 3 consecutive exams/tests. Lec long test #2, Lab practical exam, and then Lab long test#1. I had a really hard time with the Lab practical exam because my slide specimen was soooooo small. It was a speck of Pinus insularis, or, pine tree. It took me such a long time to focus on it. When I let Ms. Avi check, she cut me some slack because it was the microscope at fault. O_O Thanks, Ms. :D

I then went home for a bit, since the Psych Christmas party was still at 5pm.
Checked my accounts, talked to Zach over MSN.
The usual, really. :)
I left the house around 2:30pm or so, so I could catch up with Luigi because his last class ended 3:30.

When I got off the trike, I saw him going to his car. I hurriedly paid my fare and caught up with him.
He was actually in a hurry to go somewhere again. So I went into his car and kept quiet.
Awkward silence. I looked at him but he just gazing outside.
I slipped a Ferrerro Rocher chocolate in his hand, and he ate it.
After a while he finally gave in, and we went to our usual place.
And did the usual things.
Talk, get out of the car and smoke, get back in, talk, kiss, that stuff.
But something else happened.
No, not THAT kind of happening, bitches. XD

I'd rather not divulge, really.
I've only told it to Zach.
And Zach isn't even from the Philippines. HAHA. :D

5pm - Went to room 205. Psych Christmas party. 'Nuff said. :)

around 8pm- Went to 420 (resto-bar-hangout near school) with Gen and Angel. I was the only one drinking, haha. Split the bill over french fries and calamares. Yummmmmmmmmm. :) Got home a little past 9pm.

Heehee.ü

Tuesday is a day. Haha. XD

DISCLAIMER: Sorry if my post today is quite, well.. Meeeh. I'm feeling scatterbrained today. :D

7:30am - Saw Luigi at the store. Awkward moments. But we did hold hands a bit and hug. Hehe. :">

BioLab - Ms. Avi gives a quiz. Then after that, announcements on the 2nd BioLec long test and the BioLab long test on Friday. And then she talks about the Christmas party. Everyone gets restless and start making noise. We were only less than 20 in the whole Physics lab and we were making a lot of noise, haha! :P Lots of talking and noise, I don't remember all of what happened, haha! But she DID give us a field activity to do, but that was kind of pushed aside after the Christmas party came up. Heehee. :D As usual, Trinna, Gen and I got our paper and when we were dismissed, we were with Tita Rory's group. Go Xylem (our group haha) and Mitochondria (their group haha) groups! Woohoooooooooooo! XD (haha)

during field work - We decided to split up the work! Cooperation, beybeh! XD For the field activity, we were supposed to find the abiotic and biotic components of different locations in school. And since we were cooperating (haha.), we finished pretty quick.

HIGHLIGHT: Lawrence's new haircut. Pair it with his hot pink lanyard hung on his shoulder and his gay impressions ("Mga sister!") and it makes work a lot lighter. =))))))))))))))))))))

EarthSci - EEEEEH. It was pretty boring so I don't really have to say anything about this.

'Til tomorrow.
♥